Sooo let's talk about something super personal today. :) It's one of the most common questions I get: do I want to have a second baby? Now that Gabriel turned 1 a couple months ago I get this question almost every day, so let's get to it haha. I have to say it's something that I wonder about too with other people, because there just seems to be such a big difference between having 1 or 2 kiddos. So what about me? 

The truth is ... I don't know! Marcio & I pretty much always knew we wanted to have a family together, so that was kind of a no brainer. Before having Gabriel I always said I first wanted to see how a baby fit into our hectic lifestyle and then decide on having more babies. But now that he's here I still find it (surprisingly?) hard to make up my mind. There just seem so many things to consider! First of all, as you know, I had a pretty difficult pregnancy. I spoke very openly about those super challenging first 4 months, and though Gabriel is the best thing that ever happened to me, I haven't forgotten about it. It's definitely something that goes through my mind when considering another baby, I want to be very honest about that. Maybe people will find that selfish but I feel like self-care is a super important part of being happy, so having your life taken over like that isn't something I take lightly.

Further, I also wonder if it's true that having 1 is 1 but having 2 is a zoo! :) Gabriel is a super active baby (which I love) so I'm just not sure if another mini Brazilian would be compatible with our hectic lifestyle. This again may sound like a superficial thought (who prefers a career over family) but I've worked very hard to be where I am, and moreover, I LOVE what I do. To have to defend that thought: I'm kinda over it. It may be different for other people, but having kids is a very conscious thing for me. I'm a big believer of making your own happiness, and that you can do that in so many different ways - with or without kids. It still may be the 'norm' to want to have kids, but I perfectly understand that it's not necessarily for everybody, just like having more than 1 mini. I love the life we've built for ourselves and it's a dream to include our baby into all of world exploring, and I really don't want to jeopardise that.

So it's a real dilemma: on the one hand I love the idea of having a brother or a sister for Gabriel (he'd be the best big brother, plus I loved growing up with a brother myself!) and Marcio would definitely be pro (he originally wanted 4 kids, eeks! :)) but on the other hand I'm not so sure how it would work out practically and if it would the right fit for us. So hard! I also sometimes think: wouldn't I know for sure if I did want another baby? Isn't the fact that I'm doubting already saying that we should stick to one?

What are your thoughts on this? Do you have more kids and how did you experience the transition from 1 to 2? Do you think having an only child is more relaxed? I'd sooo love to hear! :)